I have started working at a new school. I'm nervous about making friends with my new colleagues, but I'm doing my best to be friendly. At the beginning of our lunch break, I enter the breakroom with a big bag of popcorn to share with everybody. They seem to have a close friend group and I realize it can be tricky to be new in that situation. One teacher somewhat hesitantly says, "I ordered drinks for everybody, did you want anything?" I tried to think of something easy and I replied, "I'd love a class of water, thank you so much!" I walk out into the hallway and see that Marie, Michelle, and Anne have come to school to visit me on my first day and see the building. I show them around a little bit and we eventually circle back around to the breakroom. I glance in and see that everyone has their drinks and there's no extra one for me. I wonder if someone else has shown up and is drinking my water. At that moment, one of the teachers spots me and reluctantly starts to stand up. She is reaching to get my water which has been placed on top of the refrigerator. I'm relieved that they did get me a drink after all and even went to the trouble of saving it back for me. I don't want her to have to go to the trouble and I say, "Oh please, don't worry about it! My family is here and I'll come in in a little bit and grab that." I hear her say under her breath to the other girls, "As if we wanted her to eat with us anyway!" She didn't think I heard and some of the people at her table hadn't heard. I am so hurt and I don't know what to do. I wanted to scream and curse and that woman for being so cruel. Instead, I walk over to the table and put both hands on it, leaning across to put my face close to the bitch's face. "I want you to know that I heard what you said and it was unkind and inappropriate." I turned back around and went to stand with Marie, Michelle, and Anne in the hallway. I told them about what had happened and I hoped they would be impressed with how I handled the situation. As I told them, I imagined that they would think I was a very strong and powerful woman, especially for keeping control of myself and not screaming obscenities at this teacher, even though she was so obviously a mean, rotten bitch and deserved it.
(Side note: I was searching google images for "lean across table angry" and this image came up. It's not exactly representative of "how it went down" in my dream, but I couldn't not use it. I know that the rude title with this image will seem to suggest that Angela Merkel is The B, but after reading the dream, I hope it is clear that The D is The B)
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